Road With Tears

3rd times.

n this might have killed me..
im born to b a sinner. sins full filled my life. sins that i have lied. its a punishment to me. could someone pls let me die? no jokes. dun try to fooling around with me now.

i tot tat 2day mayb will b a good day for us. david's showcase, we're goin. unlucky the counter have closed. its ok. my main mission are not that stupid david anyway. yeah, u know wat i means. its someone make me happy all the day. although all those bad thgs keep happen on us.

went bk pramid to have our dinner.. she ate so much.. actually im jz trying to let her eat more a bit.
im not tat full, jz wana let her to try my foods. cheese baked rice ain't tat good anyway.. i made her eat alot 2day. kinda happy.

then we have planned to go Summit to watch a movie. Ai Yee felling not well, so.. she went bk earlier a bit.. jz left two of us goin to watch movie.. wat a good thg for me! at least i have my 1st movie watching exp frm her. i keep trying to catch het attention. to have my chance to say the rite thgs. on the rite time. but she.. stil concentrating on tat movie. i dun mind. its a kind of amazing thg tat i can sit beside her. lies on her shoulder. n enjoy the moment.
since tat i have choose to lied her. i thinks i dun hav the chance anymore. thank god for tat.

after we have finished the movie. its the most most. frightening incident are happening!
my car been stolen!! we've try to look for my car frm b1 to b3. b3 to b1. over n over again
she was afraid. so did i. but i've to calmed her down. there is no big deal with my car been stolen.
the most important is.. she is rite by my side. safety.

finally. we hav choose to ask for help for those security over there. they keep looking for our car.
me too. i keep running frm parkings to another parking. look n look n look for my god damn car.
come out pls. so tat she wun blamed herself n feel guilty for tat stupid car.
i tried to calmed her in the security office. n i go n look for myself.
i walk bk to the beggining of the car park. n start runnin. until i reached b2. i've found tat stupid car. hell yeah.. she will b alrite later. or Mayb.. i'll have the chance to get her later. my mind was empty when i saw my car.
the 1st i have to drive bk to b1 to pick her up. she saw my car. a angel smiling face. i cant deny.
she is my Angel. Angel.

dun blame urself. bad memories are not ur fault. wat i told her when she 1st step into my losing car. crying?! dun scare me. i saw she hiding her face in her palms. i was totally heartbroke. n i feels like wan cry too le. on tat time. dun let me saw ur tears. i would have killing myself. if i made u cry infront of me. im a moron! i cant even give her confidence. i cant even comfort her in the 1st time! wat m i doin! cares for the losing car? i dun! if the car are really stole by others, i will tell my dad the other story. i 4got to lock the car. its not ur fault. its all my fault anyway. i shud have take good care of u.. n shud have remember wher my car parking at.. myself.

Im totally sorry. its not ur fault.. i mean it. its the stupid Di made bad exp for u.
the last thing i have to do is. fetch my angel.. bk to her home sweet home.
i shud assemble all my guts. into one. to say I Love You. on tat time. although its a wrong timing.
but.. in the end. i have failed myself. im an idiot.

i got myself suffering when saw u walk bk to ur home. but i nvr told u tat i love u.




msg her. about my feelings.





its a winding road. road with tears. tears blinded my vision. i duno how fast im driving the car. i jz know tat i get my self home in 15mins. n i potong a lot of cars. i cant even see. wat kind of tat cars is. tears blinding my vision.


who cares bout me? its only a jokes for someone. wow. Kit u wrote somethg funny.
wow. Kit u wrote somethg meaningless.
i dun care. i said. i dun care! its my blog! i dun give a shit for wat are u trying to tell me! I DON'T FKIN CARE!

Tears dried. Heart died. Blog ended.